Half way...

I just passed half way mark of my goal.
I was 176 lbs when I decided to lose 20 lbs by the end of summer.
I was generalizing it. In order to gain muscle, your weight should go up since muscle weighs heavier than fat.
However, I haven't been able to work out for a while due to sickness and muscle ache.
Fortunately, due to sickness, I changed my habit of eating.
I haven't eaten any food past 10:00pm.
I haven't had chips since the end of April.
I think I ate less at dinner at home.
I haven't been going out to eat for a while... since I am sick and all.
Just right now, I weighted myself at 165 lbs. That's a whooping 12 lbs difference.
I weighted myself during mornings since I don't have any food entered for at least 10 hours.
I am pretty happy about.
Once I get better and not sick anymore, I will go to the gym to burn the excess fat and start toning the body.
It feels good my tummy is flattened a bit.

Now, if I could get a dog, I could walk him/her everyday. That'll be nice.

Shine of Hope

After sharing a late night talk with a close friend, I think I have decided what to do with my situation. Funny thing about life is, you never know who is going through similar situation. I was fortunate that she forgave my absence. I was fortunate that she is willing to listen to my story. It turns out I showed up in her life at the right time to listen to her story. Life is funny this way. Thank you once again for everything tonight. It was a good talk.

Lost in the Dark

I am seeking for the light of happiness.
I am lost in dark of sorrow and sadness.

Diamond ring

Working at drive-thru, I came across a lot of people everyday.
I notice a lot of women have a nice diamond ring on their fingers.
Different size, different brightness.
The ring symbolizes eternity; not wealth.
I hope one day, I can give one to my woman.

Lost patience...

Today was not a good day overall.
Work was busy but that's not the point.
Customers were rude as hell. At many moment of the day, I wish I could throw stuff at them; yell at them; cuss at them. But nope, that's the a big no-no at retail/customer service.
The store was busy but drive-thru didn't get much help from the rest of the team. We had a line-up and customers got angry. Some customers wanted to change order at the window; other customers had to wait longer; they get angry.
It's not a good day overall.
I lost patience and thinking "fuck it".
I would say I am a patience person but today drove me over the edge.
I feel so mad that I would to talk to someone; yet, no one is here for me.
I want to scream out loud again.

Weight loss

I lost 6 lbs over the last 3 weeks...
However, I didn't change my diet.
Something is wrong with my body...
Am I dying?
Or I've been sick for a while...
Or something is wrong with my body...

When You're Gone

Wake up really early again...

This song is stuck in my head.

Every time, I think about you.

It's this song.

This one year has changed a lot.

For the both of us.

It's weird how 3 years have changed this much.

I still miss you.