Depression + Lonely = Suicide

After movie, CiCi and I had a brief talk about depression.
It turns out she almost took her own life four years ago.
As a close friend of her, I didn't even know about it.
She didn't plan anything. It was all impulsive.
It's shocking that I didn't know about this earlier.
I knew she had depression for a while even in high school.
I am proud of her that she tells this to everybody now and make awareness of it.
I am proud of her that she is owning her problems.
It sure is a big problem; it's similar to bully/cyber-bullying.

I remember when I went through similar situations.
I may not be as severe as CiCi; however, I can still relate to her.
When you experienced a sudden change, whether it was family, school, relationship, work or money, you feel like no one can help you.
You don't want to talk about it because you don't think they care about it or they will laugh at you.
You don't think you can trust them with the issue.
You may feel ashamed to talk about it.
You feel all alone and you are sitting in the darkness all by yourself.
The darker it gets, eerie feelings surround you.
Dark thoughts begin to consume you.
At that moment, I understand and know why some people attempted or even killed themselves.
I may not have reached the point of inflicting pain onto myself or others but I understand this issue better first hand.

No one is there to console you; no one is there to help you; no one is there to comfort you.
You are hopeless.
Suicide from emotions is usually long time brewing.
When your mentality can't take it anymore, you snap.
There is no planning, you just proceed what your mind tells you.
You isolate yourself even more unless someone stops and helps you.
Some unfortunate souls disappear into the world without people knowing.
All we need is someone to care and listen.
It sounds simple, yet, it's difficult to trust others to help us.
Be thankful, you have people like those around.
Be a good friend and listen to their problems.
One day, you may bring them out of their darkness and save their lives.
Because not everybody is that lucky.